1st post

recently, i keep dream about you...
while i read you blog, i think about you...
when i was free, you appear in my mind...
when i brainstorm, you are the first who pop out...
but why my dream nvr come true???
and why it seems like far away from me...

i realize, man will jealous also...
guys can moody without reason...
sometimes, guys can be more emotional than woman...
it including me...

recently, some changes happen to me...
i will talk to oneself...
no matter my subject is talking, staring and etc...
i can talk none stop...

otherwise, i become more and more emotional, speechless...
worst to worst i lost my confident to myself again...
gods... what is happening right now...
i just overcome it but now come back again... WHY!!!

i am worry...
somehow can known it as scared also...
how come i will be like that???
why???

is't because i am lonely???
i have that feeling it is...

OMG...

i hate this type of condition... when she is sick but i cant do nothing... this condition is remain very long, it since 1 and the half years ago.. haiz... anyone got ideas... what can i do...

Happy birthday...

First of all,
I would like to say Happy Birthday to you...
At the same time,
I wish you happy always and enjoy your Birthday...

So fast,
This is the 2nd Birthday that i can't celebrate for you...
So fast,
This is the 2nd Birthday that i can't send u a present...

I want to...
Do i stil have the chances???
I wish to...
When it can come true???

The thing that i can do right now,
Is stay quietly aside...
What can i do right now,
Is pray for you a lone...

I feel lonely,
I feel helpless,
I feel guilty,
I feel hopeless.

I feel like slap myself...

男人的眼泪．为谁留．为谁流

当眼睛已经习惯了凡尘俗世的嚣喧,
当人心已经蒙上了繁华冷眼的尘埃,
当灵魂已经麻木了面具背后的真诚,
男人的眼泪,
要酝酿多长时间才能决提.
男人的眼泪,
要压抑多少岁月才能崩溃.

眼泪, 究竟包含了多少岁月的压抑?
眼泪, 究竟酝酿了多少心酸的累积?
眼泪．究竟驼驮了多少男人的尊严?
眼泪．究竟埋没了多少男人的往事?
当夜再一次蔓延,
当心再一度冷空,
寂寞会不会对我,
还有一点点怜悯和施舍.

爱与恨消失之前,
还会不会有眼泪,
来装饰我的眼睛.
情和怨远离心田,
还会不会有眼泪,
释放我内心苦楚.

爱是无边际的森林,
迷路的只是我自己.
找不到出口的悲剧,
为何眼泪没有决提.
谁为我找回我自己?

我以为,
放弃了你就等于放弃了爱.
我以为,
放弃了爱就等于忘记了你.
我以为,
心只会在瞬间为你碎一次.
我以为,
泪只在心碎时为你流一回.

相思的泪打湿无眠的枕.
相爱的人折磨失意的魂.
相牵的心感受分离的痛.
相恋的人徘徊离别的街.

原来我已看不到你了,
我的心还在为你而痛.
原来我感受不到你了,
我的眼还会为你流泪.

用一分钟去爱上你.
用一辈子去了解你.
用一辈子去忘记你.
用一辈子去为你流眼泪.

多数人的过程... 可是并不包括我...

关于恋爱症候群的发生原因,
至今仍然是最大的一个谜.
不管性别,年龄,职业,体重,学历,长相和血型,
没有一个人可以免疫.

有些专家学者研究后相信,
恋爱是内分泌失调所引起.
却有别人认为恋爱属于滤过性簿,
象感冒无药可救但会自动痊愈.

不管你同不同意,
自古到今许多例子证明.
恋爱不但是一种病态,
它还可能是一种变态.

一般发病后的初期反应,
会开始是改变一些生活习性,
洗澡洗得特别干净,
刷牙刷得特别用力,
半夜突然爬起来弹钢琴.

有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑,
有人突然疯疯癫癫突然很安静,
有人一脸痴呆对折镜子,咬着指甲,打喷嚏,
有人对小狗骂三字经.

女人突然改变发型,
男人开始每天练着哑铃.
食欲不振,歇斯底里,四肢萎缩,神经过敏,发抖抽筋,
都出现在这时期.

随着病情越来越变本加厉,
人会变得格外敏感和恶心.
写的,说的,唱的,都想天才诗人一般才华洋溢.
越肉麻越觉得有趣.

有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣,
有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息,
有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方,
象做了不可告人的事情.

每天忙着找人算命,
挖空心思改变自己配合对方的习性.
把每天都当作纪念日,
把自己当作纪念品.

每天漫无目的腻在一起,
言不及义也觉得好有趣.
走着,坐着,躺着,趴着都形影不离,
象是两人三脚又象连体婴.

心里想的只有你,,只管爱你.

经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期,
不久就会渐渐开始痊愈.
两人开始互相厌倦,
互相攻击对方缺点,
所有甜蜜都随风而去.

然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒,
惊讶自己为何如此不聪明.
为了爱情不管一切,
不顾父母,朋友,姐妹兄弟开始感到后悔不已.
然后开始感到疲惫,沉闷,气喘,心悸,牙痛,头痛,梦呓.
然后是精神不济,瞳孔放大,脾气暴躁,四肢麻痹,
终于受不了要分离.

虽然结果颇令人伤心,
了解之后也没什么了不起.
爱情终究是握不住的云,
只是我想要告诉你:

在我落寞的岁月里,
你的温柔解脱我的孤寂.
带给我深深的狂喜,
如此颤动我的心灵.

轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你.
不管是黑夜或是黎明,
不管是梦中还是清醒,深深爱你.

多么幸福让我遇见你...

Calmly thinks about you...

I can't stop looking in your eyes,
But my words don't come out straight.
I don't know what to say, no.
On Monday, I tell myself u got to wait.
Dave, don't rush it. Don't anticipate.
Take it slowly, it’s ok it's ok.
I just want a chance to know you,
To know the love you have inside.
And I don’t want to look back on life,
To see this missed opportunity,
Even at the risk of looking like a fool to you.
On Wednesday I casually walk on by,
To find that you're not there,
I act like I don't care.
But on Friday I catch a glimpse of you,
I tell myself don’t hesitate.
You just walk up and say hello! Say hello!
I just want a chance to know you,
To know the woman deep inside.
And I don’t want to look back on life
To see this missed opportunity
To get to know you,
Even at the risk of looking like a fool to you.
I just want a chance to know you
To know the love you have inside

Will I ever know your heart?

心境,心灵,心思

我对妳的思念, 是我无法停止的作业.
我对妳的思念, 也是我唯一的心灵寄托.
我对妳的思念, 我相信没有人能明白.
我对妳的思念, 也只能深藏在心灵深处.

两年了, 我对妳的思念丝毫未减.
两年了, 我对妳的关心也持续上升.
两年了, 我对妳的热情还在默默增加,
两年了, 我对妳的期盼也相应的提高了.

在我脑海里, 充满了妳的身影.
在我脑海里, 也充满我对妳的记忆.
在我脑海里, 拥有我们之间的种种事故.
在我脑海里, 也记载了我们之间的点点滴滴.

对你的思念...

Title:Long for you...


Everyday when we meets,
We used to communicate in spoken language.
When we can't see each other,
We used to send message by MSN.


When times goes by,
Our distance gap is increasing.
MSN is no longer usefull,
Mobile phone come to picture.

We using mobile phone,
Connect from place to place.
Using day and night,
Speak and talk to each other.

At the moment when you decide to leave,
It is also end up our communication.
Waiting period is increasing,
From seconds, minutes, days, or even months.

At last, the condition is become worst.
Only one channel is usefull.
whch is live in memory,
and that is painfull, that is hurt.


每天见面时，你我用的是话语来联系。
看不见的时候，可以用MSN互传讯息。
当网络繁忙，手机就成为替代品。
正当你选择离开的那一刻，我们的距离变得更长更远。
简讯传达的时间从数秒，数分钟，数天，甚至数年的增加。
到最后，已经到了只能依靠思念来维持感情的悬崖上。
这胸口上的痛，是那么的明显…